Hoorah!

Man, I've been done for a good couple days now, and I still don't think it's quite sunk in...I still retardedly half-expect someone to randomly test me on something...I'm not sure where this man in a white lab coat with thick glasses will corner me with 40 MC questions, but something still just doesn't quite feel right...

I think I'm a little more worried about my marks than I'm letting on...I thought I'd done alright on a couple of my exams, but so far, marks returned have NOT been promising...man, I hate this whole learning thing...damn you bastards...

This is gonna be one hella-interesting summer...I really really hope I can find a place of employment...I am gonna need mad moneys next summer to spend my life away...a 1/5 of the 'group' will be absent for a good part of the summer, so that'll be weird too...aside from school, it'll kinda be the longest time we've literally not been able to see someone in the group...

But aside from the whole need to work thing, this summer's gonna be all fun and games...must freakin get into shape...and sports'll definitely help that cause...and yehyeh...Japan and HK baby...mmm...hooray for vacationy goodness! man, forget work, cuz really, who's gonna hire me if I'm goin on this trip? I'm gonna go ahead and blame my future unemployment (for this summer) on my 'rents...that's right, dun bitch me outt, it's YER fault...

There's so much to do all through summer, and so little time...haha...

I'll update y'all soon enough...things are just still settlin down into summer mode...and really, I couldn't be more happy bout it!

Peace outt mah people...life's good...live it up and smile the days away...but please, watch yer step on the way outt...

posted by Herb 4:52 PM

Aight...oh man, it's crunch time and I am absolutely freakin...

I think I've totally gone into brain shutdown mode...I can't even think right now, everythings purely running on automatic right now...just gotta get through til Sunday at noon and I'm in the proverbial 'money'...

Y'know when that guy jumps around all stoopid giddy, and is like "I'm in the money, I'm in the money!"...and there's singing and dancing in the background, and everyone breaks out into a song and dance routine, and it's all happy happy joy joy??

Well, come Sunday at noon, that's soooo gonna be me bein that guy...it's just a matter of gettin there...I can't even think clearly right now, random neutrons are lightin up synapses like it's frikkin Canada Day, and it's like my head can't keep up...

Ever just sit...and stare...and have a million thoughts flowing free through your mind...and you can totally see the thoughts comin...then goin...and they're goin so fast that you can't keep up with them...you see glimpses of each one, and by the time you identify exactly what you're thinkin, yer head's already moved on to the next epiphany?

Well that's me right now...I can't even sleep...I'm tired as hell and I totally know I need the sleep in order to get through the next 2 days...but man, my head's on fire and there's no way to put it out...

Must...Stop...Thinking...

posted by Herb 4:45 AM

Mmm...Playoffs...2nd round...GO LEAFS GO!!

First off...First Round Moments:
Best Series: Hands Down Calgary vs. Vancouver...
Best Game: Calgary vs. Vancouver - Game 7
Best Player: Miikka Kiprusoff/Jarome Iginla
Best Comeback: Montreal
Best Comeback Kid: Curtis Joseph
Biggest Disappointment: Marty Turco
Biggest Loser: Mike Ribeiro
Biggest Risk: Alex Auld starting 5,6 and 7
Worst Series: Toronto vs. Ottawa/San Jose vs. St. Louis
Worst Call: Daniel Alfredsson guaranteeing the Sens would win the Cup
Worst Luck: Dan Cloutier's injury
Worst News: Pat Burns' cancer

First round predictions record:
Right team and right games: 3 (TBay, Habs, Wings)
Right team: 2 (Leafs, SJ)
Frankly, that's not a bad record...

Predictions
The West:
(1) Detroit vs. (6) Calgary - Wings in 6
(2) San Jose vs. (4) Colorado - Colorado in 7

The East:
(1) Tampa Bay vs. (7) Montreal: TBay in 6
(3) Philadelphia vs. (4) Toronto: Buds in 7

After the craziness that played out last year, it's good to see the playoffs go back to the "should-be-theres" and the "should-have-beens" (aside from Calgary and Montreal)...no more cinderella stories a la Anaheim and Minnesota last year...

Now the only question remains: WHY THE HELL AREN'T I STUDYING??

posted by Herb 4:20 AM

I mentioned this to my FORMER roommate last year after having spent many hours out studying, but I'm convinced that like eating too much asparagus, drinking too much coffee (now, this was amidst my coffee addiction days, so I'm talkin bout 4-6 larges a night) makes your pee smell funny...not only considerably more pungent, but actually ODD smelling...almost to the point where you're like, what the fuck? why's my pee smell like it could kill people? so yeah...must drink less coffee...

So, exams are upon us again...and people have the greatest ability to either:
1) be stupid
and/or
2) find the best ways to waste time!

I thus present the following evidence in support of my claims:

Exhibit A (in support of 1):
Last Friday, I wrote my Ethics and Value Theory exam...and halfway through it, the goofy China Man (CM) next to me puts up his hand...so our instructor Ryan (R) comes over, and the following ensues:
R: Hey bud, how can I help ya?
CM: I afaid I dosing off...I haf not sleep foh many day, an I welly sleepy
R: um...alright...
CM: I...fank yoo
R: ?? uh...alright...(proceeds to walk away)
...5 mins later, I'm writing away...and I hear some heavy breathing, so I look over, and China Man has fallen completely asleep...he's totally out...
H: hey buddy...Buddy...wake up...yer gonna fail...(no response, so I put my hand up)
R: Hey Herb, what's up?
H: err...Ryan...(points to CM)
R: damnit...(walks over to CM)
R: Hey...(pokes him, no response), hey guy (pokes him again), you've gotta wake up!
CM: (stirs awake) what? where I am?
R and H: hahahhahahahaha...
...Ryan actually had to leave the class cuz he was laughin so hard, haha...

Exhibit B (both 1 and 2):
After I finished the exam in Exhibit A, I wandered around Talbot fer a lil bit, waiting for one of my TA's office hours to begin, so I could pick up one of my essays...then, cuz I have a woman's bladder, I had to go pee for like, the third time that day...so I walk up to the door and push, and I hit something...and hear a peppy girl's voice (G)
G: oh shit (giggles)...hurry up
H: ??? (looked up to check I had the male washroom...I did)
G: (opens the door a crack, peeks out and giggles) uh, hi
H: hi...
G: hi, how's it goin?
H: I'm alright...how're you?
G: great!
H: ...good...ya mind if I pee?
G: um...can ya hold on...my friend...she's uh...trying something...
H: err...sure...ya mind if I ask what?
G: oh, she's just tryin to pee into one of your urinals...
H: hahahahaha...that's awesome!
G: thanks
H: yup...well...I've really gotta go...so I'm gonna find another washroom...good luck with that!
G: thanks! bye!

Here, try these...
Evil Test
yehyeh, 57% evil!! beat that!

Gay Test

(PLEASE...please read my lyric of the moment, hahahaha...)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!! (The first of the "guys" to turn the big two-two...have a good one man, I'll see ya soon!)

posted by Herb 10:38 PM

Like, how wrong is it to be soooo totally in love with someone you don't know...

Steph talked a while ago about how it's perfectly healthy to have a stalkee...and Garvey apparently goes around stalkin some guy she doesn't know...

I don't think there's really anything wrong with it per se, but c'mon...there's gotta be something at least a lil wrong when it's a TV personality who you've never met...

Lori Trespicio

She's gorgeous...she's short (cuz frankly, I'm short too)...and she's smart, quirky...funny, and fun...

For those of ya who don't know, she was on Real World 10: Back To New York...and I first saw her last year when we had MTV on illegal sat...

So yeah, you could pretty much call this cyber-stalking...I'm not obsessed with her or anything, I just occasionally read what she writes...and I've managed to find out other stupid minute little details of her life...nothing actually "creepy"...

Anyhow, read what she's sayin on her latest post about grammer and proper use of words...hahaha...I couldn't have said it better...whenever I nag anyone bout what they've said, or how they've said it...this is pretty much what's goin on in my head...haha...

Ah...I'm soooo gonna go out to LA to see her one day...mark my words, it'll happen...and I'll talk to her about her blogs like she wrote about...and we'll totally hit it off...and she will be fine, oh yes...you wait and see...oh, and while I'm out there, I'll go see Janet too, haha...yeh yeh, LA: Here I Come!!

Sweet Jebus...I've gotta sleep...

posted by Herb 4:36 AM

Wow...

I'm pretty disappointed with myself...I've got a fair amount of work done in the last week or so, but I'm nowhere near where I wanted to be at this point...

WAAAYYY too much hockey's been floatin through my stupid head...I haven't been workin as productively as I should be, and even at the library...my head's been floatin in and out of books, gazettes and sports...

So now it's time for alot less playin 'round and hockey...I mean, it's only the first round...I don't have the time for this? what the hell am I doin? Gotta get my head back in the game (of studyin...not hockey), gotta get that focus back...

It's weird...it was so easy during Christmas...there was nothing to distract me...I just had exams to get through, and nothing else mattered...not even my mental state (which really wasn't at such a good place, cuz I was realy dyin for a while there), but now I'm doin pretty okay...

My head is surprisingly clear...I haven't been happy really, but I haven't been depressed lately either...things are just so...meh...y'know? nothing's wrong, but nothing's really right either...but for the life of me, I just can't focus on the task at hand...and so I ramble on and on...

...and thus my stupid babbling...

I really don't think any of that made sense, so I'll just end this with a thought...

Think about where you are right now...and appreciate it...I know we're all goin through exams and whatnot, but think past that...think about the bigger picture...exams - this is what we're worryin about??

This is nothin...we've all proved time and again that we can competently do this...think about the people around you...think how we're on the cusp of so many changes in the next 2 years and all the decisions we'll have to make...just think how calm and serene everything is at the moment...and take that mindset and that positivity into what you're doin and what you're studyin...

I guess what I'm sayin is, just appreciate the here and now...just take a moment, look around you, and take a second to smile...

G'night and watch yer step on the way outt...cuz it's a big one...

posted by Herb 3:07 AM

It's the most wonderful time of the year!

Haha...no it's not...stupid exams...

So here we go again...in a month, it'll all be over, said and done with...yet another "successful" year at university will have ended...kinda sad, yes...but hey, another summer of fun (and hopefully employment) awaits us 'round the corner...

There really is NO point to this entry...just rambling here in the libarry in an attempt to waste some time before "studying" some more, then bein lazy to go home and catching the Leaf game...haha

So, I get outta class just now...I decide to get a cup of coffee before doin some reading, so I stop by the UCC (University Community Centre), so since I'm there, I figure I'll look in and see the people playin ball...

And to my complete surprise, there's a little Asian girl ballin with the guys! haha...she was the cutest little thing EVER (I'm guessin 2nd year?)...she really wasn't very good at all (picture me, but even worse, with no shot at all...kinda sad really)...and no one would give her the ball, and she wouldn't work for it either...I kinda felt bad fer her...but she was soooooo cute out there, haha...scurrying around on the perimeter...

And lookin at her and thinkin of the last person I really liked, I came to a simple, yet hugely profound realization...I realized what "look" I'm attracted to...I really have a thing for short Chinese girls who look like Korean, but with Chinese skin! hahaha...and it's such a plus if they're all cute and sporty like too...

So yeah, right now, I'm highly amused by this stupid little epiphany...thus I stuck around and watched them ball for like 20 mins before I came to the libarry (I even showed Viv), hahaha...and now that I'm here, I kinda wanna go back...

...AND...thus ends my stupid post of the day...see, a fairly pointless post indeed...haha...

But as I'm sure you can tell, still highly amused at this point...okay, to the books now...must be productive to rationalize my going home and watching hockey, hahaha...hooray for playoffs!

But first, a quick trip back to the UCC...haha...watch yer step on the way outt people, and fer the love of God, GO STUDY!!

G'luck and Peace...

posted by Herb 3:36 PM

This is going to be the LONGEST ENTRY EVER!!...so no one will likely read it all, but whatever...

(Written April 1st, 4:45pm)

I think I've changed and grown a great deal over the past few years...this entry won't be made with that thought in mind though, I'll tackle that issue on another day...but it's a great starting point to look at my changes in terms of my relationship with education...

I used to hate school with a passion...I couldn't stand it for the life of me, and I'd do anything to get the hell away from it...but I've just come out of my pop culture class, and I miss it already...I'm actually disappointed it ended early today...

I'd be lying if I said this feeling had nothing to do with the actual content of the course (2 classes ago, we screened 2 eps of Buffy...and we've since spent classes discussing and disecting the show and its themes and values), but it's more than that...there was sense and purpose in knowledge...aside from being fun, it was good to know that'd I'd learned something...

I haven't been brainwashed into the "institution", nor the "culture INDUSTRY"...I've learned to truly see...I've learned to look and find what I couldn't before within a medium that doesn't define life, but supplements it if we know how and where to look...I've learned to learn what's going on around me...in what surrounds me, and in what defies and defines me as a person and individual living in this crazy God-forsaken stupid world...

I have a friend that I sit with everyday...we both took the course purely for fun...but she hates the material...she likes the fact that we read novels and watch tv shows and movies...but she could care less about what we're learning, and there's nothing wrong with that...to each their own...but she hates the analysis of it...she hates the fact that the pleasure of entertainment has been torn apart to form supposed meaning and intention...

Pop culture isn't only the make-up of the mass-marketing and bastardization of the values and lessons inherent in the societies of the world...it's what's beneath that's so important...everything we know and honour and hold as truth is based on tried (not tired) and true (not deceptive) narratives that have formed the basis for what humanity is as a whole...it's all built upon the life lessons we're meant to learn and discover in life...

The irony is of course that we live in a world that's forgotten what's brought us to this point...we've learned and grown to an era where we believe we don't require the contributions of the past...but under all the bullshit that is the "industry" lies the truths established by lifetimes of lived lives full of successes and failures...and it's the knowledge that I don't have to suffer through the ugly facets of life that I now walk away with...

I've, to some degree, learned through the pains alongside the pleasures through the amazing stories and tales that people have spun through the decades...that isn't to say I won't experience them...that isn't to say I'm free from the wrongs of life cuz I've learned what some of them are...this knowledge is meant to guide me and instruct me as to what my next step is in wherever the hell I'm going...pop culture doesn't define me in the same way that its marketing ploys and greed doesn't define our generation and its wants and desires, simply cuz I'm free of that and I refuse to let it blind me and limit me...

I love the fact that I'm going away with something positive...I can look even MORE critically at things (haha)...but that vision isn't limited to only this course and entertainment...it's what I've learned in my psych courses...it's what my philosophy/ethics courses have taught me...I not only like what I'm learning, I like the fact that I am indeed learning and growing through the contributions to life that others have put forth...

Despite hating it at times (moreso due to the unfortunate experience of having to concretely demonstrate what I've learned in such an assinine manner...damn stupid exams), I don't think there's anything else I'd rather be doing right now...I have a lifetime to live out the lessons I learn now...I'd rather live out what mistakes I can in the here and now and learn from each and every one of them, then have to suffer through them later in life when I may not be as well equipped mentally and emotionally to deal with them...

Some people find necessity in marks and grades...it validates their being here, their being forced to learn...they believe that only through such institutional means can we demonstrate that we have in fact "learned"...I'm not saying testing is useless, but I do think people are entirely too fixated on them...but some people would forsake learning altogether if they didn't have to demonstrate what they've learned...I don't think I can do that anymore...it all needs to make sense, and it all needs to be applicable TO ME...TO LIFE...

I really think to a significant extent that I'm learning for the sake of learning...I need to learn what to be...I need to learn of my limitations and expectations...I need to have some basis, so I know what to dream for...some people are contented to mindlessly walk through their lives as the money-grubbing, greed-driven machines that others want us to be; that we're to some extent conditioned to be...I never could see myself living that life...I don't know where this path is leading me, but I'm destined for greater things in life than soulless ambition, wanton unfulfilling desire and cupidity...I'm in line for things like happiness and love...

I'm no longer going through the motions of temporarily acquiring knowledge, spewing it out, then absolving myself of it shortly after...I'm really taking what I'm learning to heart and head...and as a result, I'm not only seeing what I learn in aspects of life itself, other people, actions and interactions...I'm seeing it in myself, in what I do, in the choices I make...I see meaning in looking back on who I've been and in who I am now...and in realizing that, I can see hope and reason in who I may someday become...

It all means something...it's no longer a series of meaningless numbers and equations...it's more than strings of exhausted rhetoric...I'm finally learning about life and living through education...never before has the idea that education is supposed to be "learning about learning" held more true to me...

I...like...knowledge...I finally appreciate it...I can fail tests galore and come away with the most meaningless of degrees (take note of future entries around May, 2005 - not THAT important, but still worth noting)...but it won't take away from the fact that I've come out of this significantly better and surely wiser...that I'm better as a person, in terms of knowledge and personal growth, for having been here...

School and knowledge used to be the most dissociated of terms to me...I couldn't link the two in terms of what it all really meant in terms of life and living...I couldn't see beyond it being a necessity towards money and power brought on by avarice and greed...that's what it was and that's how I rationalized it, as an eventual means of subsistance and support...but now it all really makes sense, it's the abuse of knowledge that brings about these things (Duh? - but it's a hard thing to learn)...not the use and gathering of it...there's reason in learning...there's purpose in it...it's inherently valuable in itself...not simply as a means towards a greedy end...

I like THIS school...I like the fact I'm learning and changing...I like where I'm at in my life and in my head...

Solace in education and knowledge...who'd have thunk it?

See? I finally AM growing up...

posted by Herb 5:58 AM

The Ottawa Song

hahahaha...

GO LEAFS GO!!

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SICAF (Seoul International Cartoon and Animation Festival) Intro - 2K3

I think I already sent most of you this link...but it's just so cool that I had to post it here again! hurry and see it before it's gone!

posted by Herb 1:43 AM

So yeah, I don't have the time nor the content to consistently blog...so there will be no deep and spanning revelations today...cuz my head's been horribly empty lately...

Wait, I actually wrote something last week, but couldn't post it...so I guess I'll post that later on...mebbe tomorrow...

Hooray for hockey predictions!

Tampa Bay vs NY Islanders - TBay in 5
Boston vs Montreal - Habs in 7
Philadelphia vs New Jersey - Jersey in 7
Toronto vs Ottawa - Buds in 6

Detroit vs Nashville - Wings in 6
San Jose vs St. Louis - SJ in 6
Vancouver vs Calgary - Nucks in 6
Colorado vs Dallas - Stars in 7

So that's that...whatever happens, I'm pretty excited about the playoffs, but a little moreso cuz I think the Leafs'll make it to the East final, at least...but we'll see...

Mmm...hockey...

posted by Herb 1:54 AM