If I Am Lost For A Day, Try To Find Me

So, y'know how on TV, people walk and think their little thoughts to themselves? Stupid introspective personal monologues course through their heads as they reflect on whatever's been going on? Well, I do that...ALOT...sometimes, I just blank out and don't pay attention to anything else while doing so...

Sometimes, I completely lose track of the time, and I just magically arrive home...yet I swear I was just exiting social sci...anyhow...in addition to that, I sing to myself...entirely too much...especially on walks home at night...I'll even go out of my way to walk home (even during winter), just to avoid people, and therefore allow myself the opportunity to sing aloud, haha...

So what do I sing to myself? usually whatever I'm listening to at the moment...right now:
Stars - Calendar Girl
Ben Folds - Gone

We all have our own little things that we do to kill the time of day...some sit down and read, others draw whatever happens to be around...some ponder their days away, and others hum a tune to brighter their mood...we all need these things in our lives that are ours alone...that we can turn to in order to just be away from everything else and steal a moment to ourselves...

Speaking of music, Rilo Kiley and Nada Surf are touring together, and are making a stop in Toronto on May 19th...anyone up for it? They're playing the Opera House and tix are 15 bucks!

Now go out and do yer own thing peoples...and watch your step on the way outt...

posted by Herb 2:13 AM

While Everyone Doses, You're Coming Up Roses...

So, there's this thing called seasonal affective disorder (SAD, if you will...haha)...whereby people experience major depressive episodes during winter...and at no other time during the year do they do so...

Now, I obviously don't have SAD...as I am the cheeriest person...EVER...but I am certainly happier during the spring/summer/fall...it's just so refreshing to look outside and have a sunny day stare you in the face...

Life...Is...Good...

Go out...and tell me walking without a big bulky jacket on a cool sunny day doesn't brighten your mood...

I, however, am exhausted...school and life take their tolls and tire the mind and soul...but, it's a good tired, y'know? it's a 'tired' where you know you've lived a good day...you've spent a productive day...

So go have yourself a great day! and smile back at the sun tomorrow...cheers, and watch your step on the way outt...

Bizarro Universe: 1 - Herbert: 0

It's like I jinxed the universe...I talk all nice and happy last night about shiny happy people (because of the sun, not in general)...and what happens? It's freezing and snowy today...

You've won this time universe...you seem set on threatening my anti-SAD-ness (hahaha...I feel clever today)...but I shall prevail...I'll get you, and get you good...

The sun'll come out tomorrow...bet yer bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be sun...

posted by Herb 1:11 AM

WARNING

Okay...all this virus BS that's been going around really does have me rather irked and annoyed...so I'm going to have to take down my imagestation info...so I hoped you all copied it down...

If not, just ask me for it...OR, just sign up for your own account, ya lazy ass...

Montreal Pics - February 2005

Cheers

posted by Herb 4:12 PM

I've Been Looking So Long At These Pictures Of You...

Montreal pics are now up! Oh Montreal, what fun times you and I have had...haha...the videos are too big to up, so ask me, and I'll send em to ya somehow...

So, the 10 days of madness are over! yessss...I no longer have to be at the library until 1:30 in the morning everynight...and I couldn't be happier!

It's such an eventful time of the year...everything's winding down, party's are in full force...and there's so much to do everywhere...saw Coach Carter last week...saw STARS last Thurs!...went to winter barbeque at Mole Boy's house on Sunday...and we're thinking GT's on Thursday and Fashion Show on Saturday...wheeeee

In all this madness and excitement, it's all too easy to lose your head...and forget the tasks at hand...

There are more important things to consider...LIKE GRADUATING!...but at the same time, there's alot of fun to be had...and it's important to realize that you can't just set aside opportunities for fun...these are going to be the memories I'll be taking away as my date of departure nears...

You've got to take advantage of having the people and places you love so close at hand...make your memories, and make them last...now watch your step on the way outt...

posted by Herb 1:34 AM

I'm Singin' In the Rain...I'm Singin' In the Rain...What A Glorious Feeling I'm Happy Again

Ah...the warming outside signals the coming of spring! hooray!

School has been pretty insane lately...been doin SO much work, it's ri-freakin-diculous...I have stayed at the library until 1:30 am for a couple days in a row now...including a 10 hr straight studyfest...I think if Sandra and Christine weren't there to keep me sane...well, I'd be insane by now...haha...muchos gracias el studi buddios...

So, I've been goin over mood/affective disorders for my human adjustment/maladjustment class in prep for the exam tomorrow night, and upon reflection, it's really weird realizing how bad of a place I was in last year...obviously, it wasn't bad enough to meet the criterion for anything (the closest coulda been...dysthmia?)...but still...it was bad...

Sometimes, things can get to feeling so bad, that you dig yourself into the hugest rut...and it can be a pretty hard thing to overcome without the support of those around you...so go out, and be a friend to someone!

After tomorrow night and Wednesday's exam, I shall be free...free enough to attend the Stars concert on Thursday night! and go out this weekend! I'm happy...and excited...wheeeeee

Hurry...while I'm relatively work-free the next 2 weekends, come up to Western before me and Simon no longer go here!!

Ponder THAT...as you watch your step on the way outt...

posted by Herb 3:53 AM

What We Hate, We Make...

Why do we do things that we know are bad for us?

I've been awake for 18+ hrs now...I have to wake up at 8 for class tomorrow morning...yet I remain seated here stupidly writing away, after wasting a great deal of time surfing random things...

But why do we torture ourselves with things that are emotionally, physically and mentally unhealthy? Why would we ever knowingly make the wrong choice? are some things that far removed from our heads and held so close to our desires? so much so that we instinctively want them, despite knowing they're wrong?

Somethings in life, you just know are wrong...yet time and again, we turn to them...out of comfort...out of familiarity...out of addiction...out of love...Sometimes the body wants what it wants...sometimes the heart wants what it wants...so what do we do?

Do we fight it? Do we give in time and again, each time hoping that this time it'll be different? Or hopefully the last time?

I've always maintained that we learn in everything we do, but maybe sometimes we don't...we live and breathe the same mistakes over and over again...rights and wrongs: they're not as subjective as you think...more often than not, there will be a time to step away and a time to stay in the game...

I shoulda stepped away long ago...

posted by Herb 2:01 AM

I'll Just Say What I Should and Just Hope You Believe Me...But It Never Gets Easier

I've said time and again that relationships take effort...very rarely can you sit back and have a relationship remain static in spite of everything that is going on around you (but if you feel you can do that, or you have relationships like that, good job)...

As a starting point in talking to someone, MSN can be pretty good...but it has to be the worst way to maintain a relationship or friendship......more often than not, you remain content that you can check in with people from time to time in the hopes that you're not completely cut off from their lives...and that's not the worst thing...you could certainly do worse by breaking off all communication...but you can do so much better too...

I don't think I can use MSN any less...I know I'm hooked on it like I am on phonics...BUT...I can promise to use the phone more...

I'm going to start making a conscious effort to call people more instead of randomly shouting them online...it's time to reaffirm the relationships I've made and build upon them...

I don't want to tell you what to do, but I'd urge you all to do the same...pick up the phone...drop by someone's house or out-of-town school (note: the subtlety)...we've all come too far to sit back and watch relationships dwindle into online relationships and nothing more...

So pick up when I call you...and watch your step on the way outt...

posted by Herb 1:07 AM